a volunteer story
Why? Whether I want to do or don’t want to do, I must do. I get to choose, if it leaves myself at ease.
So why does my pain ache so?
“Choose one already.”The tone of my mother’s voice has once again moved to where if I spoke back now, I am grounded. How did this even start, and how in the world did my mom get involved? Well, my English teacher gave us a major assignment requiring us to do charity work. My mom got involved after she discovered that I wasn’t doing well in English, and I would fail if I didn’t do good on the assignment due in around 2 weeks; and there was no way, I could have lied to her and said I did the charity work. That would lead to the evolution of the terror from mom until I left for college. Was this even worth the work? I know I’m going to be helping someone or something, but will it matter?
“Jordan, you need to choose,” my mom repeated once more. I can guarantee that this will end with it’s good for character too. I remembered my mom was speaking again.
“Are you even listening.” Rage enhanced her eyes pointed to a dagger glaring toward the target. The draw staggered to a loose anger.
“Just choose what you believe in.” The words lit up my ears.
“What about choosing what I want to do?” I realized too late I was back- talking her. Looks like I’m grounded until college, if she even lets me go. Now I can only continue as if on purpose conversation.
“I mean, weren’t you just saying that I should choose what I want to do?”
“Yes, but unless you believe in what you’re doing, you won’t want to do it or research it or do anything but avoid it.” She was right.
“Don’t get me wrong, Jordan. You WILL be doing that charity work either way, and anyway you do it, it will make a difference. You just can’t see the good you’ve done unless you’re doing something you believe in doing.” That night I searched all over the sheets of choice- charity work. I had something I believed in; and I wasn’t going to give up then. I’m DEFINATELY not going to give up now.
Whether I get to choose what I want to do or not, it doesn’t matter. I’m still making a difference in something or someone’s life. What DOES matter is not believing in what you’re doing. Unless you believe in what you’re doing, everything you do won’t matter because you won’t want to TRY to do a good job, or see the good you’re doing. If you have something you believe in, and something is HAPPENING to it or involving it, than stand up and speak up about it. If no one will make the difference, you need to do it yourself; because if YOU don’t do anything about it, nobody will. One of the greatest diseases is to be nobody to anybody. If you have to stand out for what you need to do, that’s better than NOT standing out and losing everything you believe in without even TRYING to do something about it.
If everything you believe in is gone, then what else in this world could you believe in?
P.S. I never found anything on endangered plants, so I ended up working at the Blue Ribbon Equine....and I'm happy I did!
horse_volunteer.ppsx | |
File Size: | 4786 kb |
File Type: | ppsx |